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Backsliding

Since starting my temp job approximately three weeks ago, I have gained 4.5 pounds.
This is after maintaining a stable weight for three months.

I'm not 'upset' at myself, more disappointed. I could feel myself sliding back into bad old habits: drive through for breakfast because I'm sleepy and rushed in the morning, buying junk food chocolate the other day because I had cravings, not getting as much movement in my day because of the schedule and style of the job. . . I'm just glad it's not worse: that I *have* packed my own lunch all but two days and have been eating reasonably well there.

I haven't been to Nia for a couple of months. Time to go back tonight, even if I'm tired.
I think one of the biggest challenges of exercise is to maintain the counter-intuitive awareness that (in most circumstances) exercise like Nia will make me feel *better* when I'm finished, even if I feel tired at the beginning of the class.

Nia is perfect for this time, because it stretches out my entire body and it emphasizes pleasure, not pushing through pain. I definitely need much more stretching *and* pleasure in my life right now.

In counterpoint to the physical backsliding, I continue to make progress spiritually, despite the fact that my daily practices have been minimal most days. I keep having small but potent realizations that I think I'm doing a good job integrating and holding on to. I did do a full cycle last night, and it felt almost effortless. I'm hoping that a breakthrough I thought I experienced just before I started the temp job really was as significant as I'd hoped.

It's 5:09am. . . I need to shower and figure out what to do for breakfast before I leave at 5:30am for my 6:00am clock-punch.

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9thmoon
Sep. 22nd, 2009 03:18 pm (UTC)
It really helps me to pack more snacks than I could ever possibly eat in a day and then my thrifty upbringing kicks in and won't allow me to buy bad-for-me-stuff when I have perfectly good food with me already that will go to waste if I don't eat it. Dunno if your brain works that way but it's worth a try, maybe? :)
qos
Sep. 22nd, 2009 03:34 pm (UTC)
I've been working on the snacks. :-)

Finally found some bars and rice cake snacks that I like. Need to add fruits and veggies, of course. . .
9thmoon
Sep. 22nd, 2009 03:38 pm (UTC)
Baby carrots. I swear, I'm eating so many baby carrots I don't know how I'm not turning orange.
professor_mom
Sep. 23rd, 2009 02:33 am (UTC)
Do you like kombucha? I'm a long way from perfection, but I'm finding that it's helping me.
qos
Sep. 23rd, 2009 12:24 pm (UTC)
I have no idea what kombucha is. . .
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