Today, despite my expectations of last night when I was tired and frustrated and wrung out after a week at the day job, I'm going to drive an hour to attend a study session of a Co-Masonic group I've been getting to know. I am desperate for adult, non-family contact outside of my work life, and I genuinely like these people. The fact that the lodge has a metaphysical focus is very important as well. I am lonely in my spiritual life, with the only friends who come close to being "co-religionists" living a very long way away.
I'm tired of feeling frustrated, trapped, isolated. . . but have yet to find the way out of the box.
Also looking forward to today's visit with Hob for a gaming session with him and Wolfling. But I'm even a bit afraid of that. I'm not sure I'll have the creative energy and juices to roleplay well. On the other hand, Wolfling is a brilliant rpg'er, and Hob is always inspiring. At worst, just hanging out with them will be fun.
One of the big blessings of my life is that I truly enjoy hanging out with my kid -- and she enjoys it too.